Today

Today makes it exactly one year since my oldest brother Brien ended his own life. God I miss him so much. It's hard to believe that a year has already gone by. It's like, he was here just a year ago..how did that happen? I'm filled with so much sadness, yet at the same time, I'm happy for him that he finally has found the peace that he so desperately needed. But where do I go from here, ya know? One whole year....I have lived my life for an entire year without him...it's just too much sometimes. My favorite memory is of him carrying me home on his shoulders from Lion's Park when I was 4 or 5. I wish I could relive that moment. I miss you, Brien...and I love you more than I think you'll ever know. We put this song in the pamphlet for his memorial service...I think it serves it's purpose, although it sure doesn't do my pain justice...it's more like a song from him to all of us who are still grieving...

See You on the Other Side

Ozzy Osbourne

Voices.. A thousand, thousand voices 
Whispering, the time has passed for choises 
Golden days are passing over, yeah 

I can't seem to see you baby, 
Although my eyes are open wide 
But I know I'll see you once more 
When I see you, I'll see you on the other side 
Yes I'll see you, I'll see you on the other side 

Leaving, I hate to see you cry 
Grieving, I hate to say good bye 
Dust and ash forever, yeah 

Though I know we must be parted 
As sure as stars are in the sky 
I'm gonna see when it comes to glory 
And I'll see you, see you on the other side 
Yes I'll see you, I'll see you on the other side 

Never thought I'd feel like this, 
Strange to be alone, yeah 
But we'll be together 
Carved in stone, carved in stone, carved in stone 

Hold me, hold me tight I'm falling 
Far away, distant voices calling 
I'm so cold, I need you darling, yeah 

I was down, but now I'm flying 
Straight across the great divide 
I know you're crying, but I'll stop you crying 
When I see you, I'll see you on the other side 
Yes I'll see you, see you on the other side 

I'm gonna see you, see you on the other side 
God knows I'll see you, see you on the other side, yeah 

I'll see you, see you on the other side 
I'm gonna see you, see you on the other side 

God know I'll see you, see you on the other side 
I wanna see you, yeah, yeah, yeah, see you on the other side 

God knows I'll see you, see you on the other side 
I'm gonna see you, see you on the other side.. 

(short version, as done by ESITU)

The way you shine is almost mythical. All but divine, awkward and cynical. Sit in the calm warm currents of circumstance. The pain has come, open wounds salted as the waves crash on my dearest friend is only pretending. I'll love you always, the words that you wrote to me. I feel like I'm in a bad dream. Unsatisfactory, I would do anything for my dearest friend. You're all but dead with this ill foreseen ailment ... smokescreen. I'm so saddened by this light, gone numb from the ultimate lie. You didn't say good-bye, circulation gone in my mind. I'm tossing here at night, swallowed by the sadness inside. My cause for all of this, useless hostility has died. Hostilities died in my apathetic little mind. When I find a moment in time and I'm healed inside by my reasoning why, sadness follows. Kill my sorrows. My life hollow. End this now.

Currently Playing Afterglow By Sarah McLachlan Drifting see related

Brien-

You've been gone for so long all that you know
Has been shuffled aside as you bask in the glow
of the beautiful strangers that whisper your name
do they fill up the emptiness

Larger than life is your fiction in a universe made up of one

cause you have been drifting for so long
I know you don't want to come down
But somewhere below you there's people who love you
and they're waiting for you to come home please come home

You walk in a room and the world stops to stare
You mesmerize all who are caught in the glare
of the spotlight that follows wherever you go
does it light up the emptiness

Larger than life is your fiction in a universe made up of one

cause you have been drifting for so long
I know you don't want to come down
But somewhere below you there's people who love you
and they're waiting for you to come home please come home

Currently Playing Audioslave By Audioslave What You Are see related

And when you wanted me
I came to you
And when you wanted someone else
I withdrew
And when you asked for light
I set myself on fire
And if I go far away I know
You'll find another slave

'Cause now I'm free from what you want
Now I'm free from what you need
Now I'm free from what you are

And when you wanted blood
I cut my veins
And when you wanted love
I bled myself again
Now that I've had my fill of you
I'll give you up forever
And here I go far away
I know you'll find another slave

'Cause now I'm free from what you want
Now I'm free from what you need
Now I'm free from what you are

Then a vision came to me
When you came along
I gave you everything
But then you wanted more

'Cause now I'm free from what you want
Now I'm free from what you need
Now I'm free from what you are

Now I'm free from what you want
Now I'm free from what you need
Now I'm free from what you are